Delighted to welcome author, Victoria J Brown, back to TWG as I review the final book in the ‘Chaos’ series, ‘Finding Myself’. Huge thanks to Bombshellpub for asking me to take part in the blog blitz, as well as sending an ARC of the book. Here is my review:
Kat’s life has become a blur of dirty nappies and sleepless nights. She has moved into the flat above the salon she owns, alone and without Max the father of her children.
To make matters worse, Max has revealed he plans to remarry.
Constantly on edge, her babies are taking up all of her time and Max is never around to help.
Diagnosed with post-natal depression, Kat feels more alone than ever.
Will Kat be able to manage alone? Can she find hope and rebuild her life?
What does TWG think?
In the previous book, ‘Losing Myself’, we left Kat during a highly emotional time, yet it was great to see the author pick that back up at the start of her new book, ‘Finding Myself’. I had had a horrible feeling before reading this, that time would have fast forward quite drastically, meaning that we would have missed out on the raw emotions carrying over from the previous book.
Thankfully that wasn’t the case at all. In all honesty, as soon as I started reading ‘Finding Myself’, it didn’t feel like there had been a break between the two books as the author picked the character back up from where she left off. Now THAT it what I call fantastic writing.
Once again I don’t wish to give anything away, even though I would love to sit here and discuss certain characters in length!! Poor Kat is struggling to find her feet after the birth of her two babies, Rosie and Poppy. Her life is no longer her own and whilst she adores her little girls with all of her heart, Kat can’t help feeling a little bit of resentment towards her new life. Her home is not her own as people keep walking in and out, completely oblivious to a thing called, oh I don’t know – PERSONAL SPACE! The girls’ father has pretty much given himself a zero hour contract, whilst still being a grade A loser. Sorry, but he is.
There is a lot of stigma surrounding post natal depression. Mums’ are either too ashamed to admit that they’re suffering, or they just keep telling themselves that they’re coping fine. I mean really, you’ve just had a baby – why aren’t you as happy as pig in poo! As a mummy myself, I thought exactly the same. Why was I sitting on the sofa feeling as though I was the worst mum in the world for not dancing around on cloud nine, despite having no sleep for 2 days straight! I didn’t have post natal depression but I did have the baby blues. I feel that Victoria J Brown’s writing is not only poignant, it is exceptionally raw, whilst bringing a misunderstood, mental illness into the limelight, whilst also showing people that not everything is rainbows and daisies when a baby is born. What Kat went through is real life. It can happen to anyone and everyone after giving birth. Why should that be ignored?
So many times I wished I could just reach into the storyline, grab Kat and give her a big hug. I feel like I’ve come to know the character well in such a short space of time, so seeing her emotional made my emotions come pouring out.
I’ve never liked Max and this book cemented that fact ten times over. I was SO glad to read that someone else agreed with me. About time too! Well, in all honesty, his mother wasn’t exactly my most favourite person either. I actually know people in real life like Max and Clare – I don’t like them in real life either!!!
The overall theme of this book is girl power, finding your emotions and learning to grab life by the baby bag for YOU and nobody else. It’s far too easy to get swept up in ‘can you do this for me?’ or ‘you’re coming out tonight with us, right?’ and so on, without actually taking into consideration your own true feelings on said matters. You don’t HAVE to go to a mother and baby group if YOU don’t want to. You don’t HAVE to breastfeed your baby because someone else TOLD you to. You do what YOU feel is right for YOU and YOUR baby. After all, you’re the one waking up with them every single night, caring for their individual needs, right? The same goes for any other life situation. Don’t do things because someone told you to. Obviously if it’s a police man then that is different, but I’m sure you knew that.
I related to Kat in so many ways, but without Victoria J Brown’s honest, inspiring and thought-provoking story telling, I wouldn’t have been able to relate to Kat at all. This author is an absolute genius and just like Kat, I would love to give her a big hug and thank her for write books which are so real and relatable, that they’ve given me strength to say the all important word of ‘NO!’. I admire Kat and I also admire Victoria J Brown. Even though this storyline does shout about independence to a degree, it also highlighted the importance of support and finding your safety net. Girl power all the way.
A highly emotive, beautifully written, and inspiring read, Victoria J Brown has done it once again. I am super sad that we have now reached the end of this series, but it is a series which will forever have an important place in my heart.
Victoria J.Brown has always had a passion for writing. When asked at the age of 9 years old, what she wanted to be when she grew up, her reply ‘an author’ was met with a disheartened response, ‘that jobs like that, don’t happen to people like us!’
Luckily, Victoria didn’t listen to this advice and never gave up on her passion. She continued to write while perusing a career in Marketing after gaining a BA (Hons) in Business and Marketing.
In 2006 her eldest daughter was born and then two years later her 2nd daughter came along. Victoria realised in the midst of the mummy madness, that she’d let her writing dwindle and that nappy-changing, sleepless nights and not being able to go to the toilet in peace could not stop her fulfilling her writing dreams. So when her girls were 3 years old and 18 months old, she decided that sleep was over-rated and enrolled at Teesside University. A year later she proudly left with a MA in Creative Writing, some wonderful friendships and a passion for therapeutic writing. While studying for her MA she was also delighted to win a short-story competition judged by Adele Parks, to which she received publication and mentoring from Adele.
After her MA, Victoria concentrated on writing women’s fiction. She loves writing stories that women can relate to. The Chaos Series grew from her own experience of pregnancy, motherhood and life.
Victoria is also passionate about mental health and likes to write of such issues in her stories. Her dedication to mental health and living life to the full has led her down a spiritual path. Through her learning of spirituality she qualified as a Law of Attraction and NLP Practitioner, which she integrates into her writing. Her inspirational blog includes an A-Z motivational journey with weekly therapeutic creative writing exercises. She has developed this further and will soon launch her inspirational shop. The shop has been created to pass on positivity and love to others … you never know when someone may need to see those messages.
Being accepted by Bombshell Books is a dream come true for Victoria, she hopes that her mantra for giving love always and never giving up will inspire others to follow their dreams and passion.
If you’re interested in finding out more about Victoria, her inspirational blog and shop you can visit www.victoria–brown.com, plus you can follow her on: